I honestly don’t remember how many times I’ve created a new blog with the intention of publishing some kind of writing. Twenty fiveish years ago I made some kind of name for myself and found a community writing about music, and I can’t extinguish the hope that I can replicate it again. Of course, now isn’t back then, and a single blog in the ocean of content isn’t a mailing list with a built in audience of like minded people, but that little quiet voice keeps talking and sometimes, for my own sanity, I need to give into it.

Plus, writing has always been the way I make sense of things and as I’m learning about being autistic don’t I keep seeing the advice to lean into these kind of things? So we’re doing this again, even reusing an old url this time. I guess picking up things I’d previous discarded is becoming a bit of a trend in this whole unmasking process.

Anyways, we’ll see where this experiment goes. I obviously would love to see this turn into something and for me to find some sort of new community, but past performance would indicate otherwise. So I need to try to do this for me, a mark that I make that may never be seen by anyone else, but I know it’s there and that needs to be enough. Otherwise past performance tells us this will get tossed off in frustration when no one reads and what’s the point of pushing that boulder again?